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heeeey, you’re back!! how are ya doing?
Hey! Yeah, I’m back and excited about it! I felt like I was going insane without posting or hearing from everyone. I’m doing a little better. There are still days when I feel like I can’t even move, or breathe for that matter, but I’m definitely doing better than before. I miss you all! :)
i feel now that because of recovery… i’m no longer “me”. i want so bad to feel okay being 110 pounds, but i want so bad to put on my eating disorder and wear it around like my clothes…
Oh yeah, I totally know how you feel. ED’s always become part of a person’s identity, like you can’t be recognized without it. When I started gaining weight in recovery, I felt like a completely different person, and it took a lot of time to realize that it’s not your ED that makes you who you are, it’s your personality, traits, likes and dislikes, ect. I still don’t believe I’m completely me without saying ‘Oh hey, I’m that girl with the eating disorder’, but remember that it takes time to separate yourself from your ED. Think of something positive about yourself everyday and wear that around like your clothes. I know that’s probably not the answer your looking for, but give it a try and let me know how you feel. Take care <3
About me
the name's andrea. i'm from a city near toronto, ontario. i'm eighteen and pretty crazy. and you can't delete any pictures off my camera or computer, i won't let you. i'm kinda girly, i sing everywhere i go, and i love to dance. i love music... a lot.
i think i focus on the unimportant stuff in life too much... i am horribly terrified of gaining weight and being judged. patterns and clusters of holes scare the $h!t out of me and make me itchy. it's called trypophobia.
i love food but i hate it too. i never said i wasn't complicated. my eating disorder has been the centre of everything i do for the past 5 years. i post all about it on this blog to keep from going completely insane.
i love meeting new people and making friends. i'm completely shy at first, but once i get to know you, getting me to shut up is the problem. i'm a pretty cool person, so don't be afraid to talk to me.
Click here for my personal tumblr.
